the text above was in my head. i had to write it down somewhere but i didn't feel like loading it up here on dA. i mean, it's just ghost letters, isn't it. and btw it's a good introduction to start up with some teenage waste so - d o . n o t . r e a d . a h e a d . ♡


well, there's everything said in the writing above.
i was his doll to play with and he was mine, but love killed it, again.
lulz.

maybe it isn't even as serious as the last two times.
(please don't tell me i'd love another boy every mouthful because that isn't right.
i was in love with two while i felt more like 'addiction' for one of them.
two times in one and a half year, maybe the third time now. not much compared to others, huh?)

gosh, i have issues. anyway.

i'm very good friends with his ex. she still loves him and he still kissed her, sometimes, but then he dumped her finally. it seemed she had got over him so he started a little game with me and i joined. it was fun for a while then we lost control. none of us wanted this to happen but he fell in love with me and, shocked as i was, i rejected him. he desperately asked me not to end the game but i did. for a while it felt right but then i started to miss him more and more. now that he makes out with his ex again i crash,

and i wonder why because actually it mustn't touch me a bit.